Mom was abusive

Mother was always insecure and took it out on me. Was never really there emotionally. Did not tell me do your best or encourage me. She put a lot of pressure on me and would call me names and say that I will be unsuccessful in life. I’m 27 and I have not achieved or done much for myself because I am still holding myself back with the negative self talk. She’s unavailable to talk to me, I have tried to open up but I have never had a meaningful conversation with her. I know she does her best, but she still can’t get over her ego and talk to me about how I feel about growing up. I have always felt less because I don’t have a good relationship with her but at this point I don’t have anymore hope. I mean I am just too old to be hung up over this but I do not have a support network or anyone to talk to. I think that is why it’s so hard for me to move on and find a career and move out.