Midlife Crisis, losing my mind

I'm losing it. Mentally declining.

I've always felt like a failure and since my most recent life decision I'm just kicking myself everyday.

Little context. Went to college around 2017, never finished, jumped around jobs until I found a pretty good one. There was a change of management and I ended up being let go which sent me into a midlife crisis spiral. "I'll never amount to anything, I'm no good at this career choice" endless self hate, self deprecating talk.

A buddy suggested I just go live with him out in a different province that there's more opportunities. So I said fuck it, packed up, sold stuff, gave up the apartment and got a one way ticket. If I'm being 100% honest, I don't think i really wanted to come out here. Used it as an excuse maybe who knows.

But now I'm here regretting my decision every waking moment. No job offers, running out of money and hope. Part of me is fighting the urge to just go back, max out the credit card. I should have stayed in the first place, went back and finished my Diploma. I'm unqualified to succeed out here and I'm losing it.