Life is pretty damn hard

You're always growing and maturing, which is cool. And I do think it's possible to be happy and satisfied with who and where you are in life. The problem is that it doesn't last and maybe that's the beauty of it. You will have many chapters in your life where you feel fed up, hopeless, confused, angry, impulsive, or just not like you think you should feel. When you feel good, you look back on those hard times and try to figure out how it could've been avoided, or how you were able to change so drastically so that you don't make the same mistake again. You're always trying to figure out what got you to where you are. I have thought about suicede and I think everyone thinks about it at least once in their life. Thinking about something and considering it are two different things. I've had times in my life where I was so confused and frustrated about things that just didn't make any sense. It's powerful when you go through these things and it makes you stronger when it's over. It's an unfortunate gift, life. And you have to find the good. You have find it in yourself to be happy and learn how to spread that happiness to others. This is what makes life great. You live and you learn. You explore and socialize with others. We experience life together through different lenses. I'm not religious anymore but for lack of a better phrase, I pray for anyone out there in the midst of pain or confusion. You are not alone and your life matters. Even if it doesnt seem to matter to others, it matters to you and that's what's important.