Life does not exist

Today I had someone telling me to live more. I than tried to look at the things in my world, that account as 'life'. However after searching I came to the conclusion I don't have any. God exists, but life does not.

I had one shot with this girl, who talked to me back but she said she doesn't think it's a good idea if we meet.

I don't have any hobbies, they all died down.

Friends are either fake or obnoxious.

Family often hurt me.

Drugs and alcohol are not for me anymore. Not when they really account for 'life'.

Movies are not enjoyable after they are so filled with subliminal messages.

I than maybe thought prostitution but that is death in a different way.

I just came back from volunteering all day, so I dont feel like doing that anymore.

I can't come up with something, anyone have ideas?