Life After 26

I am a person who had psychological problem in my entire life. I am a morbid obese guy since i was born. I am not a person who is handsome or attractive if i evaluate myself in real terms. I am always a nice person btw. I had a lot friends who love me. The problem is, nowadays, i think about the good moments and some persons from the past and try to stalk them. Because i know they were some good points in my life and after them life was not that good. Now, i am 26. I've never have a girlfriend. Starting from 18, i've tried to stay at home as possible. I did not want to do anything. It was might be due to psychological problems that i mentioned before.

I graduated from high school and university which are having good reputations. Now i am working in a global company which is really huge. That's my all thing about my life.

I know that i did not live my life as a "young". They had girlfriends/boyfriends, hug each other, good health, good thoughts, different hobbies... I want to su*cide for 5 years. I cannot because i fear and don't want to make my parents sad.

Is there any hope about life after this time? Will I be happy as if i live my young ages like i wrote above? Will I be healthy like other people? or... Is this the end of life?

Like the singer said... Forever young, i want to be forever young... Because i know i am becoming old.