Life!

I am 25M. Lost my mom to cancer 2 months ago. Me and my family tried our absolute best to take care of her and fight with her. Unfortunately, I saw my mom suffering to the point that we all knew death was the better option, yet I still can’t get over it. I am just not sure how to handle all the emotions I go through. I tear up every time she pops up in my head. Part of my heart feels hollow even though i have great family members and a great gf. Somewhere still feels hollow and my throat starts closing up every-time i tear up. Just hate the feeling. I really miss my mom. I really wish I can go back in time. Just don’t know how to move forward.