It’s not getting better

They say life will get better but for me it has not. At the start of the pandemic I was a semi successful personal trainer. Wife, house dogs and all that. The pandemic destroyed my business. I ended up in debt trying to hold on to that career. Not long after that my father passed away from cancer. He was one of my best friends. My wife (at the time) did nothing to console me. She just kept on with her life and friends and started to only come to me for chores. We got divorced this past summer and I’m now living alone. I don’t like being alone. I’m a social person and am now alone nearly all the time. All my friends are married with kids so they don’t have time or just don’t want to hang out. I decided to try a dating app but it’s been about a week and I have 0 likes and no one responds to the likes/comments I send. I feel terrible all the time. It’s like I lost my place on earth and I’m either invisible or disliked. Making friends at 40 seems impossible. Sitting solo at a bar feels weird because you know you are the creepy loner. Any advice would help me but don’t tell me to get a hobby ( life time musician) or to see a therapist (seen 3) they don’t have answers just a way to process your insurance.