It’s a lonely existence being a mixed race person. I never thought of myself as a mixed race person, until society needs to put me in a specific category. I’m just a person. But that’s not enough, you have to either identify as white, or brown, and I’m both.

I have brown skin, and I love it. I’m half white, and to white people, for my entire life so far I’m a brown person that needs to be treated poorly and treated as if I’m invisible. To brown people, some say I look white. Some say that they think I go to a tanning salon.

I feel like I’m in this middle section between Brown and White, for nearly 60 years now, and I just can’t win no matter what. I love who I am. I love how I am. I love the way I look. But it’s a lonely existence. I’m fed up with brown people not really wanting to hang out, white people not wanting to hang out, white people treating me like I’m invisible and undeserving, brown people doing the exact same thing. Where are all the mixed race people? I really need to find more people like that, so I can find friends. How could this be so difficult?!