Is this it?

I guess this is part question part cranial exhalation (credit to Henry Rollins for that perfection of a term)--but, I dunno. I've traveled a LOT, I've seen so many of my fave bands, met some of my most influential artists when I was in entertainment (all nice experiences), I'm looking back at my life and time in other countries, and I'm in my mid-40s now. Divorced, unemployed, I have the good fortune of starting from scratch and get to choose the design. And I have no designs on trying to be 25 again or something, but so much of my inner self has never lost that same energy and enthusiasm for art, life, weirdness, experimentation, adventure. New health issues crop up every year, and I know that's part of the deal of life...but then I know and have seen so many other artists perform well into their 50s and 60s (the ones who aren't loaded enough to accommodate an army of assistants for immortality). So I guess this is a question for the older creatives in the room. Where have you found your spark again to adapt the wildfire in you in a body that's trying to shut down, during a time when introverts have taken the mainstream and it seems no one wants to be out anymore or meet anyone? (I'm not talking about the people dealing with longterm loss, longterm illness, financial constrictions, etc. None of that is invalid but it's also not what I'm talking about.)