is it bad that i don’t really want to work anything more than a random minimum wage job?

i don’t really see the point in working incredibly hard when so many things are now basically unattainable. prices keep rising and wages keep stagnating. wealth inequality is increasing while we just kind of accept that “hard work” doesn’t actually pay off.

maybe it’s also my own personal lack of ambition, but i don’t think i’ll ever have a family either. i don’t think i’d find satisfaction in any career and i probably wouldn’t have anyone who i would want to work to take care of, so it seems sort of pointless.

i kind of just want to settle for something simple. security guard job, maybe, and just work that till i die. it’s bleak, i know, but i don’t think my life would be any different if i worked an office job as a software engineer or accountant. even if i made more money it really wouldn’t matter to me because that’s not what i care about. if i can survive with the most bare minimum effort, especially after life has burnt me out year after year and destroyed my spirit, is it wrong to choose that?

what do you think? i feel like i’m being dumb, but i’ve thought about it for months and i’m conflicted. not because this isn’t what i want, but because i’m still preoccupied with being seen as a failure. growing up i was seen as “”gifted”” and “intelligent” with “potential”, but i have none of that, i’m certain.