Im confuse

Hi, im a 18f going to 19 in April so I don’t have much time, and I just can’t believe the 20s is so close. I feel lost. I have zero experience in everything. Right now, I'm trying to learn how to cook and do laundry. I don't look my age because I'm way too skinny at the moment I look like a combination of the Minecraft skeleton and the zombie. I don't have a license, no job, and I'm attending community college. I often feel stupid because English is not my first language, and I always get the feeling that I'm doing everything wrong.I don't have any friends and struggle to socialize like a normal person. I live with my parents but don't engage in any of the hobbies I had in high school like video games or painting I used to love art. l'm scared because I see people who are 19 or 22 getting degrees, getting married, and even having babies. Meanwhile, I'm still a virgin (I was okay with that, it looks like I won't be losing it anytime soon.) and feel like I need to wake up in 2020, without COVID, and have a normal middle school graduation. I don't feel like an adult, and it's frustrating. And during my teenage years, I was mostly in bed doing nothing—no parties or drugs or anything. Now, I find myself repeating that pattern, but l'm trying to change bit by bit, step by step but im like stressing out. I'm scared and I'm missing high school even if I spend all those 4 years trying to get out, Im scared, I still feel like 17, I didn’t realize how that was my last really good year.