Idk what happened

I know I’ll get a lot of judgment but I needed to let it out, I had such pure intentions when I was young but I ended being someone who had 3 abortions all before the age of 28, mostly because of severe trauma and SA , I ended up being someone who has been abused by everyone they trusted despite how it stated out and made any personal mistakes as well. No matter how I tried it as never enough, I tried every route, religion, new age, stoicism, yet I wasn’t “ lucky “ enough to see a change, the opposite really. I always wished my self well on my pursuit of being , the last prophecy I had; was one relating to my death, which was a slap in the face after everything I’ve been through, so if I don’t make it for whatever reason, please know I fought a good fight. I wish you all well on pursuit of being ❤️