idk… life?

hi~ just wanna let something out cos idk if it’s not normal anymore haha was thinking abt life these days and i just realized i don’t really have a plan in life. i always think that i’ll be gone by 30 so the only “plan” is to work until that time, enjoy things, travel. idk if i’m explaining this well haha but i do pray sometimes to have a really short life like until i go to this specific country or until i see my fave group live and then after that, i can d** already hahahahaha i was talking to my sister also and she told me that she wants to live a long life, get married,,,, and it just dawned on me that there are people who are willing to live hahaha idk… is anyone like this also?