I wish I could relive the past 30 years of my life endlessly for eternity.

I don't want to see what is around the corner anymore. I want to wake up tomorrow and it be December 28th, 1994.

I can sense it. The remainder of my life and that of my loved ones will be totally overshadowed by sorrow and suffering. It's going to swallow up the sum of my life experiences. I live in the past because that is only where I experience hope and peace. All I can do is just fade away in thought.