I want to meet more people and find someone to share my life with.

I’ve (34m) suffered from loneliness and depression for most of my life. In the past few years I’ve worked on myself a lot and have learned to love myself. I still however find it difficult to meet people and even harder to maintain friendships. It feels like a lot of people just don’t have time to be social anymore. I feel like I have to push really hard to get anyone to do anything. And I’m kinda tired of pushing. Is it selfish to want someone else to initiate every once in a while?

I’ve have one romantic relationship in my life. This is another area I want to improve on. Idk how to do it. I just don’t have those skills currently. Is there rule book somewhere? I feel like that Chris Pratt meme where he doesn’t know something and it’s been to long and he’s too afraid to ask 😂.

Any advice would help.