I want to commit

Hello. I won’t state my name nor gender. I’m 15. I have no one to talk to about this and it just feels like my story is invalid because my life isn’t a sob story or anything but that also doesn’t mean my experience is invalid.

It’s only to do with my grades and my upcoming exams lol. I wish I was smarter. I wish I didn’t have to opt for foundation in any subjects. I just wanted to be one of those who gets A*. I don’t know why I’m doing a lower level maths when I know I can do higher.

It angers me that I can’t fuel my knowledge further.

I am trying to be religious. It hurts everyday though.