I want to appreciate life

I’m incapable of appreciating life because I lack most emotions.

I can’t feel affection/love, gratitude, satisfaction, or respect. I can’t form deep connections.

I don’t want kids or marriage. Any romantic relationships I would have are for money, sex or ego.

I have one friend, she’s shallow like me. I can’t form friendships with others because I lack interest and feel weirdly avoidant.

I’m genuinely confused what’s the point of All This.

I’m trapped in a mental prison where most things that motivate people to live, I don’t want or can’t have.

I’m chronically empty.

Any advice?