I’ve lost my spark

Suffered a mild slip disc in December, despite having slightly improvements, I still feel miserable each time my back aches from sitting on chairs, when I stand up etc, the nerve causes my left leg to feel so so strain and it ruins how I feel about everything, like my mood has beeeb perpetually down and negative, with some days where I feel normal. My slip disc was a result of my previous job which I left on August, I enjoyed that job before it turned into sales, but now knowing I’ve hurt my back because of it, I have so much regrets such as not leaving earlier, being stupid because I did my best and did more than 100% all the time, even on sick days and on leave, I worked. I recently started a new job too and I’m just a month in, feeling so lost on the job. There’s so much going on and there’s little guidance because everyone is flooded with work, but I do poke my nose and ask questions and I do get replies and all.

It just hasn’t been a good 2025, and I don’t see the light at the tunnel with my back issue reminding me of the pain and strain at times. Visited a orthopaedic yesterday, and he briefly looked at my x ray and said he won’t put me through MRI until 6 months later, he wants me to do physio first and take 6 weeks of low dosage painkillers for my nerve. I guess he hopes I can self recover where physio helps with muscle and back strengthening.

I don’t know. I have worse days in life, but yet what I’m going through now seems to be a lot more difficult than those times.

Anyone could give a little encouragement, or share your experiences about going through slip disc and what you did to make yourself feel better or perhaps share about yourself if you’re also having a bad year and we can all try to work together and hope to get pass the next hour, next day.