I've learned that adulting means silently falling apart and pretending to be okay and alone.

I'm so tired I can't keep fake smile plastered anymore, and all anyone does is put me down or avoid me for being very worn out. I hate the way things are and I feel trapped and unable to express. I'm struggling without being judged, mistreated. Friends, Family if I don't pretend to fit in I'll be treated as an outsider. I've never felt so alone and fed up before.