I think in this world everyone has and will always try to bring me down and literally run me over and some will even try to kill me.

All my fucking life I've been racially bullied from 11-18 and only a handful of kids have stood up for me. Some of these motherfuckers tried to kill me.

In grade 9 someone choked me and raised me up and I should've kicked his balls because he had made a yo mama joke on me and I made one back. I became a bully only for a year and stopped. All girls have called me ew and one told me once when I was younger and less attractive that she would rather kill herself than ever be with me after my bsf asked her in a truth or dare.

And then he motherfucking dropped the bomb on me and told me that he never was my childhood bsf but just hated seeing all the classmates bully me. I fucking hated coming home after and getting smacked with a belt and fists in my head from my father.

I fucking hated the girls in my life all calling me ew. I fucking hated the people trying to shove me into the ground and killing me. I fucking hated when my dad beat me up from 5-18 until I coughed up blood and had purple bruises all over my body.

I fucking hate the people online, I fucking hate that nobody let me leave the world from 5-23. I fucking hate it all. I fucking hate this world so much and If this world wants to kill me but not let me go then so be it. I am done with this world and its people.

I will make a plan and my childhood self fumes with the same fucking anger that has been brought upon by the people of this fucking world. The people that isolated the small helpless kid, the people that told him from adults the cps was going to kidnap you and laughed and beat me to a pulp. The people that are all evil and make you believe that they are kind but they are all monsters.