I think I set myself up for failure.

I don’t know what to do. I work a job that is just shit. I don’t even get paid my states minimum wage and we deal with so much shit. I don’t want to go to school because I know I’ll fail. I am constantly procrastinating and I am terrible with schoolwork. I want another job but, I don’t know what to do. I’m stuck in this constant loop of wanting more for myself but always falling back after feeling discouraged. I feel like I can’t do anything. I’m stuck. I’m just doing shit to do it and I hate that. I just want to do what I want and make money whilst enjoying what I’m doing. I’m so fucking tired of this job. I did this for other people and not myself. I always do shit for other people. I haven’t done one thing for me. At all. I always cater to people. Not once have I done something for myself. Why?