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As a teen and young adult I was privileged to have a lot of options open to me. My parents were pretty hands-off so most of my 'direction' came from school. This led me to travel to Germany and initially I planned a career in neuroscience and got accepted into university for it, but ended up switching to study English lit/lang and teaching abroad.
I liked international teaching but moved back to the UK to do the teaching qualification here, the PGCE and the continued training following it. I'm currently ECT1 and I just hate it. My school is good, heads of year support teacher decisions and behaviour is not ideal but it's generally okay or at least fairly well managed.
And yet... I am barely scraping by paycheck to paycheck. I'm working SO much. Most evenings and at least half the weekend I am working, and in school my mentors make me feel like I still need to be doing more and that they don't trust me to do what I should be doing. I keep missing my international life. I'm almost 30, so I feel like I ought to 'make a go of it' here, but I am miserable. I'm less healthy here - in every way - and feel close to burnout.
Maybe I should have stuck to neuroscience or some other career? Maybe I should have just stayed international? Maybe I should have never left?
Sorry - mostly a rant. It would be helpful to hear from people who have felt like this before and now feel differently.
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