Heres some examples:
i have an issue with my medications, i have to make sure I look at the floor even though i have my meds to "make sure" theres no meds on the floor, ill even go as far as sweeping the floor. Even though i know nothing was dropped.
When I was going to high school, I didn't even have a key, so the door was unlocked, so my compulsion didn't even matter. (The rest of my family was inside the house sleeping) I had to make sure the door was shut by opening it and closing it several times. Or by twisting the doorknob. I would also check the sinks, fridge door, and stove even though I'd use none except the sink or maybe sometimes the fridge. Last week, I was cleaning my counters and stove top and a clorox wipe slightly touched the top of my pepper shaker so i cleaned the lid with soap and water and dumped out a little pepper. Then I questioned myself even though I KNOW the clorox wipe didnt touch the salt shaker but i started freaking out and cleaned it too "just in case". After cleaning both and whatnot, i still was freaking out and had to ask for verification so i can calm down.
Everydays like this.
My compulsions make me doubt my inability to do things, like for some reason, i lose memory.
Anything i touch that i feel could be contaminated, an itch, a pain, pressure, something in the skin. This is specifically with germs. Even though in reality, nothing will happen but in those moments, i dont have any common sense whatsoever.
I did ask about OCD to my psychiatrist but she said that its high anxiety without testing me for it but I do not have OCD as far as I know.
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