I need a win

Well after the events of my last post here, I moved back into commercial diesel to try and save up to get my own plumbing licensing.

The interview for this place was really great and I liked the job up until the first day….when I was one of two mechanics after being told they had a crew and several shifts that was a lie….they lied about a lot and by “a lot” I mean EVERYTHING!

I began job searching again and decided to swallow my pride and go back into plumbing! I got SOOO excited when I received an offer. After completing the drug screening I returned to work and turned in my two weeks notice and I was fired immediately. Refusing to freak out I took it as a blessing for a week off work.

As the week goes by I hear nothing from my new employer. I call up there and find out they gave me the wrong drug panel long story short I cannot begin work until the middle of January.

The list of things that have gone wrong since the drug screening issue.

-I broke a tooth -Tire is bad on my truck -washing machine shit itself -wife’s car broke down -my panic attacks have started again (since 16 yrs old) - we were paycheck to paycheck before all of this happened - we are now completely broke.

2024 has been a year of straight getting screwed and I am currently at the lowest I have ever been.

Compared to the recovery from childhood abuse failure as a husband is crushing me. My wife deserve the world and I can’t give it. She doesn’t expect the world but I do.

I’ve never been suicidal but I am beginning to become numb and my wife has noticed a very sharp decline in my sex drive and I’m not sleeping.

As a 27 year old man I’m not too proud to admit that I need some positive words and prayers. I have failed and could use a win.

What do you guys do when things get like this?

(To be clear I use no drugs and have no prescriptions I am clean, it was a clerical error.)