I’m losing faith in Jesus Christ and church isn’t helping

I don’t view it as a religion, just a believer in Jesus Christ and what he has done for us. But lately, I’ve been thinking about my life a lot and how it doesn’t seem like it’s progressing. I’m in my early twenties and already feel like a failure. If Jesus really loves me, why do I feel so unhappy with myself and my life? My family and I go to church every Sunday but I don’t feel like I’m receiving the word of God. I just end up being a moody girl sitting there with words hitting my ears. Enters one ear and exits another. I’m sobbing Sorry this post is all over the place I feel empty