I’m at a better place than I have been in over a year, but I have constant anxiety and dread that something is about to go wrong

(24M) I didn’t use to be like this, but in the past year, I’ve gone into sudden debt in the thousands, got fired from two jobs, one for misconduct and one for not meeting expectations. At the same time I went through a really bad breakup and my stress was so bad I started getting grey hair. This all happened to me in the span of 4 months.

The worst part is I know for a fact that all of them were my own fault, I try not to linger on it because you can’t change the past but sometimes the thoughts come

I’ve now found a really good job opportunity and I’m back on my feet, but after all that’s happened I’m constantly afraid of what’s going wrong next, there’s no indication of it, but it’s always like something that’s sitting in a corner in my stomach

I honestly think I suffered some kind of ptsd response because I now have constant anxiety and everything tips me over the edge and gives me a mental breakdown. I never used to be like this

I was always a confident kid, maybe even arrogant to a fault, but now my self esteem has taken such a huge blow that I literally feel like I cannot do anything a normal functioning everyday adult does

I’ve spent a huge amount of money on getting an adhd diagnosis from a psych and getting medicated, but now I have no money

I made some mistakes, I definitely fucking paid for them, I learned my lesson and suffered enough, I just want a quiet life now