i'm a 22 year old stuck in a 10 y.o's body

i have hormone issues and haven't grown since i was 10 years old.I was already so fcked up in life before that i am on the spectrum but this thing tore me apart.I still look like a 10 yo and have no job never had friends so bad at motor skills.Have hard time with my intelligence.At this point i don't understand why i have to live.Anyways