I just turned 36

I just realized… I have nothing. No car, no house, no one. But hey, at least I have no debt.

Is this really all life has to offer me?

I had an ex who did nothing but drain my savings until there was nothing left. Then he ghosted me only to turn around and marry someone else. (good riddance though)

Maybe I’m just too unattractive to be anyone’s love interest. I also dress kinda awkwardly, I try to be kind, but I barely receive even half the love I give, not that I expect anything in return though. Like, I gave my friends five flower bouquets for their birthdays over the last three months, and I got nothing when mine came around.

I guess love is simply about giving, not about being loved in return. So, I’m not gonna stop doing this, it makes me happy, I feel like I have so much love to share, even if it rarely gets reciprocated.

Also I feel like crying is a luxury for me because i just cantt and it’s really killing me inside to be honest..

Thanks everyone for listening, I just have no idea who to talk to about this.