I haven’t gotten out of bed for 3 weeks after being laid off

I get up only to use the bathroom, shower, and open the door for food/alcohol deliveries. I’m letting myself go in a way I’ve never done before. Eating and drinking in bed, watching show after show, all day and sleeping. I’ve never felt so useless and withdrawn from the world. I have no motivation rn to give a shit. I have to force myself to eventually walk around my apartment or my back starts to cramp from being in bed 20hrs at a time.

I wake up around 4p and immediately start drinking and watching shows. I’m drunk by 8, order some shitty food, take a nap, then stay up all night watching more tv. I secretly hope this is as far as I get in life. That something happens, and I depart with my final memory being a human slug.