I hate there are many opportunities in life that I will never get unless I die and get reborn again

I can’t join the military because I have diagnoses for sleep apnea and autism. I can’t do engineering clubs like FSAE or DBF. I can never go on trips with peers in high school. I can keep going on and on, and it hurts so many doors are closed forever now. I would kill to make different decisions in life, but it hurts there is not much I can do now