I hate myself i hate the fact that ill never be loved again

Has Anyone ever found her second love? And if so, how did they do it? How do they find you're one true love? That's gonna be there for them no matter what even if life gets them down or is it always going to be like this your passed up for someone else im tired of always being #2 never #1 im a good girl a complete package but no one ever sees that I'm just a piece of s*** Do they use what they need and want? I discarded like the rest. This sucks Im tired of it! Heres to holding myself while i cry myself to sleep again