I hate my parents for giving me birth in 3rd world country

So I'm 20 living with my family as immigrant in 1st world good country and we are trying to settle here and immigration is hard rn and overall so much expectations from my family. Anyway let's say my birth country is X ,and when I see my friend from same country as me who are residents here live so freely (for ex my friend was born in same country as me but shes now a resident and had travelled world -we were middle class but still a huge gap, ) and away from the hardships from my birth country.I feel so jealous, when I see an alternate version of me if I was born here I'm envious of myself and hate my parents even more- for example I won't have to deal with barbaric people of my country , can travel the world, no cutthroat competition etc. I wish I could have an option to take a drop and see world like my friends but nope thanks to me being born in wrong place. I love to write story but to my parents that's not a option. I'm an optimist but I get broken down sometimes because of this and lost hope. So many emotions just wanted to dump here.