i feel so lonely

I feel like everyone in my life is slowly pulling away, and I’m scared I’ll never have a real, lasting connection with anyone. The only person I really care about is my best friend, but even with her, I can’t shake this feeling that she’s going to leave me eventually. Nothing big has happened to make me feel this way, but the thought of being alone makes me feel so empty. I’d do almost anything just to have someone stay, to feel like I’m not completely alone in this.

But even when I’m with my friends, the emptiness doesn’t go away. I’m physically there, but it’s like I’m holding myself back, unable to say what I really want to. I just stay quiet, and it feels like I’m stuck inside myself, disconnected from everyone around me. It’s exhausting, and I don’t know how to change it.

I feel pathetic in away because i know all this yet i just can’t convey it to others who care ab me