I feel so avoidant of my future

1 month ago 31

I kind of want to type this out for myself, but would like others perspective and/or advice.

I graduated HS in 2022 and about a month after got a physically demanding warehouse job because my parents basically scared me into it since I didn’t know exactly what I wanted to do. My sister had recently dropped out of university unexpectedly that my parents were paying for so they said they wouldn’t help pay if I went to college and that had an impact on my decisions.

A year later I had decided I would start community college to get an associates in basically IT which I could pay for myself. A year and 2 months later and I’m here with 2 failed classes and 1 I dropped. 2 of my first 8 week classes end tomorrow and I’ve basically done nothing in both. Throwing my money away.

I come home from work around 1 am and just ignore my computer. I know I need to do it, but I just end up picking up a controller or watching YouTube til I’m dozing off. I’d say I could quit my job, but I get into it with my stepdad at times that just make me want to move out and this job is basically the only that pays enough for me to be able to live on my own and pay for school.

I’m thinking of switching majors to find something I may be more passionate about, but I’m afraid I’ll end up in the same routine. And just thinking about speaking with advisors and having to start over annoys me. I think I’m just lazy and this job takes so much from me I’ve been ignoring my future. I want to finish school to get out of this stressful warehouse, but this job pays well so I can afford school and the things I have to pay at my parents house.

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