I dont think I'm fit for...

I'm a pre final year student.. Recently the intern session in college conceded and unfortunately I wasnt one of those who were chosen for internship.

I get it and its alright...6 months left for the placement sessions to begin and everyone is grinding for it

Coding 24/7, increasing the cgpa(GPA), building a strong resume and those who have secured and intern are at a league way above us with a probability of getting a PPO and a strong resume with exp at a reputed company..

Well all of this is normal!

But i dont think I'm fit for this! I feel that i mentally lack the ability to keep fighting keep struggling.... I dont see my efforts pull up i am at the point of my life where i just cant anymore...

1 more failed result of all my efforts and I'll break... I'll lose the hope that i was ever meant to be a part of all this. I'll lose the hope that my hardwork will ever show its result!

Ill break the hope to see my parents smile cause of something that i achieved!

Ik all this sounds so immature naive and stupid but at this point its the only thing i can think off...

I'm not too good at coding rest a say I'll say that I'm an average person and trust me i work hard i really do but seeing no result really haunts me!

I have a cgpa of 7.35 or gpa of 2.94 most of the companies shortlist candidates at 7.5 or 3...

And this semester I'm sure my grades will fall...

I worked hard but my exams didnt go well..

Ik if my hardwork isnt working then I'm doing things wrong and I'm the one to blame only!

But till whennn!!!?????

Ive changed my techniques of learning I've tried to adapt to new situations no environments to figure whats best for me

Still no answes...

I guess I'm just not fit! A defective piece or i was never meant to be here...

Idk! Pls consider this as a rant rather than an advice or a discussion post

Thank you for those who have read!