I am most likely never going to find love, and that's so okay in my books

see, i have had my fair share of romantic moments with boys, pretty nice if you ask me. They all used me and that should've been obvious, im pretty ugly and most of the things that i say are not to their taste. Nevertheless, I've never been in a real real relationship before, because i could not keep a single guy for more than a day. Literraly. Every one around me, and i mean, everyone. even 14 year olds in my long distance circle (dont worry we aint friends) have a real relationship going on. I dont hook up with people, i dont watch porn cuz its satans mansion level brainrot, i dont do drugs, i do drink and smoke my part. I live a virgin life proudly, even when boys wanted to do it, i said no. Good girl. Yes, i am christian. Yes, I am the type of spiritual girl to wait until marriage, but honestly, what do i have to worry about? nobody wants me anyway. For reference, i have a big crooked nose, blue eyes, screwed up hair (still didnt get no refund thanks a lot) (typical blondes) light brown hair, small chest, 5'2-5'3, big bunny teeth, petite. So yeah, im a teenage boys worst idea of a girl. And worst part is that my dads side of the family ran in GIANT GIANT boobs and my sweet angel mommy who didnt even bother to stay in my life had smallllllll boobs. The one thing that coulve redeemed me, but oh well, enjoy texas babes xoxo