I am Jack's deflated happiness

I am single, in my 30's no kids and rapidly approaching another birthday. I have spent many years of my life working in an industrial career that cost me in many ways, the entire time dreaming of escape. I have had many attempts at small endeavors leading nowhere. A while ago I was offered an opportunity to buy a small yet successful business. This was the break I saw for myself and the joy and excitement I felt preparing everything was next to euphoric. Yet due to history that we all have lived in some form, funds were not there for me so I had to deal with the banks and other lenders. Every attempt was met with red tape, road blocks and bureaucracy. after months of this struggle a large corporation stepped in wrote a check and with that my opportunity was gone. Tomorrow I will wake up before the sun and go back to doing the only thing I know.

I am Jack's complete lack of surprise