I am giving on people

At this point of life I have given up years of my life for reaching for something that everyone told me was very respected and needed work One of those things people see as very very respected and lucrative With social level effort of encouraging people to pursue this career and status "we need more people like that" as they say And when I say given up years I mean it Spent all of me on it All the possible relationships time with my friends job time with my relatives holidays Everything Gave up all of my free time for years to get there Had my ups and downs and so on And even tho I was one of those who were never expected to get there and beeing perceived as too weak by the very same people I am almost there But now when I was supposed to be so close to reaching my goal I guess what happened? There is no more respect and encouragement from others towards the very own thing I was trying to accomplish like when I started And even it seems like any care or need either I feel as if almost nobody cares It feels absurd and I can't take my work seriously anymore I am angry and frustrated But most off all what I am concerned about is the fact that... I can't help but to think about how people with very rare exceptions talk nonsense stereotypes and how they live in this selfish pseudo intellectual society where they talk about things just for the sake of talking and when somebody achieves the thing they have been talking about and doing this whole show for then instead of rewarding those who did it they just ditch them avoid them or just change the topic Even tho I haven't given up on my goal I can't help but to feel very bitter towards literally everyone around me because of that And cold towards my goal I can't help but to crave to just give up on them all close off and never listen again