How can I be less of a worthless piece of shit? (26M)

Reasons why I think I am worthless:

I am below average height

I have a round face

I have a mediocre physique after 10 years of working out

I have gynecomastia

I am 26 and have never been on a date

I have a weird name

I have been described as "everything about you is awkward" "he is confident and awkward" "you are the most socially awkward person I know"

No matter much i put myself out there I will always be socially awkward. I am too positive and smiley I feel like I come across as if I am a kid and I hate that.

Areas in which I am doing well I guess: 1. I'm early in a career with high earning potential (I work as a Software Engineer)

1. I have health

2. I talk to people and help people feel included when talking in groups. I also do volunteering talking about my experience working in tech to visiting school students