How am I supposed to live life when everything is set up against me?

People say it’s weird to eat alone, travel alone, or go to parties alone—but what am I supposed to do when I have no friends? Every time I try to connect with people, they either judge me, make fun of me, or just ignore me. I’m blind, and people either treat me like I’m invisible or use that as an excuse to be rude to me. If it’s not that, then it’s something else—my looks, my weight, the way I talk. I’ve been bullied my whole life, so I don’t always know what upsets people, and when I make a mistake, I feel like I’ve ruined any chance at friendship.

I’m in college, trying to get a degree, but I don’t even know why anymore. I work hard, but what’s the point if I never have anyone to share my life with? People always say, “You’ll make friends eventually,” but I’ve tried everything—joining clubs, talking to classmates, putting myself out there—and it never works. I feel like being a blind guy makes it impossible, like I never had a chance from the start.

How are you supposed to keep going when it feels like there’s no place for you anywhere?