Have you ever woke up and told yourself you are tired of living better lives in your dreams then real life?

Hello everyone. I am a struggle bus right now and have a debilitating disorder that doctors are struggling to figure out. Anyway, when I sleep well through the night I don’t dream. When I struggle to sleep and micro dose it, I have very vivid dreams. Last night I had a dream that I had an amazing night with friends (that I don’t know in real life- imaginary people) and we ended the night going to a tattoo shop and getting really stupid light hearted tattoos. It felt like pure joy. Then I woke up. I slept maybe 40 minutes? Anyways. I woke up and immediately told myself I’m done living a better life in dreams than real life. I want to feel better and get better. Does anyone have any advice living with an undiagnosed disorder? Seeing doctor after doctor? Thanks yall.