Going on with colourless life

I’m currently a 19M, in 2nd year of uni. I’m doing good in uni with good and caring friends. but one thing I notice is that high school workload and family issues including money have sucked me dry to the point that I’m just cruising through life with hope of getting what the people around me want me to have. Even if they give me an option to do what I want I still don’t know what I want truly nothing comes to mind apart from a life alone on a mountain hill with the breezing wind and a pet dog. Obviously this is not feasible so I’m just lost and tired. Would it be better to end it or idk just let life suck me dry to the point where it doesn’t have meaning anymore to live. I’m only living for the people around me and not myself.