Figuring out what my life motto is.

Hi beautiful people,

I stand in front of you as a blank slate today and have no idea anymore what life meaning is. I divorced 12 year ago, after 12 years together and 20 years of expat living, I then travelled extensively for 4 years until I came back to my country to care for my dying father and then my blind narcissistic mother. 10 years later I am mid 40's, childless and wondering what life for people like me is supposed to bring. I have a career I hate and wish to quit working for foreign companies at home, which is truly alienating as I don't physically see or talk to any real living being. I don't feel home in my home country and I don't feel home anywhere. Have 5 social security numbers in the EU and have not had physically close friendships in 10 years. I realise as most of my friends are older how hard it is to live alone and have no clue what is my purpose.