Feeling pretty shook up atm

I’m just coming to terms with the full state of my mental health, ended up in the hospital last week. Trying to find the right treatment has been like trying to find diamonds on the road.

Guess what my heater just fucking exploded and now I have to wonder if I have permanent brain damage from a gas leak I’ve been living with for the past five years.

In times like these it’s hard to not feel like something’s working against me. Is there anyway to get in a more positive mindset while trying not to freeze my ass off tonight.