Feel stuck in life

I fucked up school I fucked up work I fucked up family relationships I’ve fucked up partner relationships I get no one’s perfect but it genuinely feels like nothing ever goes to plan I’ve made so many plans to make money legal or not and they never ever go to plan I smoke a lot of weed and I can’t even afford it 😂 I know what I should be doing but I just can’t I feel stuck sometimes I’ll get a job interview and I’ll get so overwhelmed with my thoughts to the point I talk myself out of going to them and making progress in life and what pushed me to write this is I need help. I need to hear from the point of view from someone who is familiar with these circumstances or has been through this I struggle a lot with talking about how I feel and this is the best I’ve done so far so any advice would be great 👊👊