Existential crisis about leaving my home state after college…

I’m (22M) a few months into working full-time after school, in a new city in a new state. Moved from Virginia to Oklahoma. It’s just hitting me now all the holidays, birthdays, and everything I won’t be there with my family for in the future.

I’m about to visit home again for a couple weeks, and I’m excited to see everyone again, and I don’t know if I’ll stay longer if I can.

I do love it here. Moving here was kind of my only option for work anyways, after all the other places I applied. I got my dream job.

But seeing all my friends and family back home post their yearly traditions and birthday celebrations is killing me a bit on the inside. I’m still trying to make long-term friends here.

I’m deciding what to do long term, and how long my visits will be. I never feel secure in any of my decisions. I always feel like I’ve made the wrong one.