Everyone's out there living their life, and I'm just sitting here dissociating.

It's hard to believe that any of this is even happening, and yet it is. I somehow manage to go to the gym a few times a week, but besides that, I'm just sitting in the dark and constantly staring off into space. My life has been so agonizingly empty/awful for so long, that it's like I'm trapped in a perpetual state of shell shock.