Everyone else has a support group but me

This time of year is very, VERY psychologically distressing for me. I try to distract myself but it’s impossible. I’m reminded that despite only being 24 years old, most of my family is dead and I have no support group to fall back on. As everyone else enjoys Christmas right now with their friends, their new romantic partner, their massive family, or all three, I have nothing. Not a single thing.

I’m sitting alone in silence. I don’t have anything to do. I have absolutely no person to spend any kind of time with right now. It hurts. I try to be a friendly person. I’ve been told I’m kind and funny and people seem to like me, but I’m never invited anywhere. Never been invited to a party. The few people I guess you could call my “friends” never want to be seen in public with me, ever. They have me, and then they have their “real” friends who they treat like actual human beings.

Why is it so difficult to make new friends that actually are authentic as an adult? I’ve followed all the standard tips that MAGICALLY work for everyone else. I try going to events. I put myself out there. I’ve gone to the gym. Nothing happens.