Duality

Isn’t it ironic how we’re advocating for “focusing on ourselves” then we shun narcissists?

Most times I wonder if I want to be selfish or I want to be selfless. Then I remember … it doesn’t matter because everyone else will have their own POV about how you’re acting. You could literally be thinking about nothing and doing nothing and people will have something good / bad to say.

With that in mind, I strongly think that I’m neither a good or bad person. I’m both. And everyone is too. Because in the eyes of others, I vary. Internally, I sometimes think bad thoughts but I just don’t act on them. Does that mean I’m good? I’ve done things to serve myself and the tradeoff would be others’ satisfaction. Does that mean I’m bad? When I have to give and give and start pulling away to focus on myself, people will still have something to say. It’s mind boggling. I have my seasons.

Why can’t we ever truly get life right …