Dissapontment

Im a consistent dissapointment to my enitir family and ive lost my husband i have nothing to live for at all i get consistent ridqule about what im doing or who im with or even if i ask for helpbso ive decided that ill ask no one and wont bother anyone go to work at a dead end job my husband now we are separated so i wont bother him ever again cause to him im a dissapointment too so in everyones eyes im a total screw up wish that some day id be someone they wanted around but its ok ill just be alone for the rest of my life